The Goodbye You Asked For

I had imagined this scene countless times, but I didn’t expect to see it this way.

In fact, I could have blocked Regina, but I just wanted to read her messages again and again like a masochist to remind myself what kind of lies I had lived in the past five years.

I wiped my tears and made an appointment with another hospital.

This was the private hospital of the Warner Family. If I had the operation here, Kevin would know.

I called the driver and told him that I was going shopping and asked him to go back by himself.

Until the driver drove the car and disappeared from my sight, I walked out of the corner and stopped a taxi to rush to another hospital.

Before entering the operating room, Regina sent me a message again, but the difference was that this time it was a video.

The video lasted for an hour. Kevin in the video was overwhelmed with emotions and there were many small toys scattered on the bed.

I had never seen Kevin look so out of control.

In the five years of marriage, Kevin had always been gentle. Even in bed, he was cautious for fear of hurting me.

It turned out that he was not born to be self-sustaining, but the person who could ignite his passion had never been me.

I kept watching the video as if I was self-torturing, wanting to see Kevin whom I had never seen before.

I didn’t know how long it took before the nurse came to my side.

“Miss Rodriquez, are you okay? It’s time for you to go to the operating room.”

It turned out that as the video was gradually played, I cried more and more.

And now, I was trembling all over with tears and even the fingers holding the phone were shaking involuntarily.

It was not until now that I shamefully discovered that I still loved Kevin.

He was not an item that could be thrown away if it was broken and he was not an ordinary friend who could be broken off at worst.

He was a living person, my husband, who I had been married to for five years. Loving him had become an instinct that had penetrated my bones and blood for five years.

In these five years, everyone said that he loved me as much as his life, but hadn’t I treated him the same way? I couldn’t bear to accompany him day and night for five years, I really couldn’t bear to leave him.

Thinking of the child who was only the size of a peanut on the ultrasound report, I took a deep breath and wiped away my tears, wanting to give Kevin one last chance.

I called Kevin.

“Kevin, are you done? I’m done with the examination, can you come back?”

Kevin’s voice was indescribably hoarse, as if he was holding back something.

“Maisie, I have something else to do here. You ask the driver to take you home first…”

“Um…”

A muffled groan sounded, the phone was hung up and only the mechanical “beep” sound remained.

After a long pause, I looked up at the nurse waiting beside me.

“It’s okay, you can have the operation.”

It was dark when I got home after the operation. As soon as I opened the door, Kevin came to meet me.

“The driver said you didn’t go home after the examination. Didn’t you say you went shopping? Why didn’t you buy anything…”

Halfway through the conversation, Kevin noticed my red and swollen eyes.

“What’s wrong, Maisie? Have you cried? Why are your eyes so swollen? Tell me what happened.”

I looked at his eyebrows and eyes carefully. They were really beautiful, as beautiful as before and my reflection was full in his eyes.

As beautiful as the eyebrows and eyes in the afternoon video.

I lowered my eyes and avoided his worried eyes.

“It’s okay, maybe it’s because I’m pregnant. My mood is a little unstable. Kevin, I miss my brother. I want to see him. My brother said he would send a plane to pick me up tonight.”