He Regretted Choosing His Mate But I Had Already Found My Alpha

Ronan hated mornings, assistance, weakness, and me.

By the fourth day, I had learned that he also hated porridge, sympathetic looks, and counting exercises aloud. I made him endure all three.

“Again,” I said.

Sweat darkened his training shirt. He stood between two wooden rails in the rehabilitation room, his injured leg shaking under his weight. Without his formal black coat, he looked less like an untouchable Alpha and more like a dangerously attractive man being held together by discipline.

“I did it twelve times.”

“You did it eleven. The last one was a threat.”

“It was directed at you.”

“Then make the next one impressive.”

His glare should have frozen the room. Instead, heat gathered low in my stomach.

He took another step.

His knee nearly collapsed. I moved behind him, bracing one hand at his waist and the other against his abdomen. Hard muscle flexed beneath my fingers. His breath stopped. So did mine.

“Your balance is too far forward,” I murmured.

“You are distracting.”

The blunt admission made my face burn.

I withdrew at once. “Then fall.”

He turned his head. A faint, wicked light appeared in his eyes, there and gone before I could trust it.

The door opened.

Adrian entered carrying winter sunlight and every memory I had tried to bury. He wore Silverbrook green, no cane, no brace. My work lived in the easy power of his stride.

Ronan straightened despite the pain.

Callum appeared behind Adrian, looking displeased. “He claimed urgent pack business.”

“I came for Elara,” Adrian said.

“I’m working.” I kept my voice flat.

His gaze went from my flushed face to Ronan’s bare forearms. “Helping him regain combat strength is a mistake.”

Ronan’s expression became carved stone. “Careful, Vale.”

Adrian ignored him. “Elara, you don’t know him. He has no warmth, no gratitude. He will use your gift and discard you.”

The hypocrisy stole my breath.

“You mean like you did?”

Adrian flinched. “That’s not fair.”

“No? I spent the whole year rebuilding you. You stood on the victory platform with another woman and asked me to remain your closest friend. Now you cross two territories to tell me which wounded man deserves my hands?”

His jaw hardened. “You belong in Silverbrook.”

“I belong wherever I choose.”

He stepped closer and lowered his voice. “Regina does not understand me the way you do. The bond is powerful, but what we had—”

“Was something you ended.”

My wolf snarled inside me. I pointed at the door. “Leave.”

Adrian looked stunned. Perhaps no one had ever denied the beloved Alpha heir twice.

He glanced at Ronan. “When he hurts you, remember I warned you.”

After he was gone, silence filled the room.

I busied myself cleaning a support strap. My hands trembled. “We are finished for today.”

Ronan did not move. “He was right about one thing.”

I looked up.

“I am not worth defending.” His tone held no self-pity. “Blackridge could appoint a stronger Alpha. Callum could lead until a challenge is settled. You owe me treatment, not loyalty.”

I saw then what his cruelty protected. Not arrogance. Shame.

I walked to him slowly. “You held this pack through three border attacks while injured. Your soldiers lower their voices outside this room because they respect you, not because they fear you. And yesterday, you approved winter grain for the widows before repairing your own house.”

His eyes narrowed. “Who told you?”

“I listen.”

“You know nothing about my failures.”

“Then show me. Stand up tomorrow and show me every one.”

Something changed between us. His gaze dropped to my lips, then returned to my eyes. “You make commands sound like invitations.”

My heart struck hard against my ribs.

“I am your healer.”

“I know.” His voice became rougher. “I remind myself often.”

For the next two weeks, Ronan stopped fighting the treatment and started fighting his own limits. He trained until his shirt clung to his back. He let me manipulate the damaged joint, even when pain whitened his knuckles. Sometimes his hand closed over mine during the worst spasms. He always released me quickly, but my skin remembered.

He began bringing me coffee before dawn.

He also started appearing in the children’s ward after training. At first he claimed he was inspecting hospital spending. Then I caught him carving a wooden wolf for a seven-year-old boy with a broken arm.

“You missed a meeting for this,” I said.

“The council repeats itself.”

“And children do not?”

The boy held up the crooked animal. “It has three ears.”

Ronan examined his work. “A tactical advantage.”

I laughed. His eyes settled on my face, and the severe Alpha disappeared for one unguarded second.

That moment frightened me more than his temper. Adrian’s charm had been easy and public; everyone received a piece of it. Ronan’s gentleness came rarely, as if he opened a locked room and trusted me not to steal anything.

Later, while I stretched his damaged leg, he asked, “Did he ever make you laugh?”

“Adrian?”

Ronan nodded.

“Yes.” I kept my hands clinical. “That was part of the problem.”

“I am not good at it.”

“No,” I said. “But when you manage, I know it is real.”

I began saving the less bitter medicines for last.

One evening, he managed ten steps without the rails. His face remained stern, but triumph brightened his eyes.

I laughed and threw my arms around him before I could stop myself.

Ronan caught me. His chest was solid against mine, his heartbeat fast under my cheek. One hand spread across my lower back. The other rose to the nape of my neck.

My wolf pressed forward, hungry for his touch.

I lifted my face.

His mouth hovered over mine.

Adrian’s final letter flashed through my mind: You are still important to me.

I stepped away so abruptly that Ronan almost lost his balance.

“I’m sorry.”

His hand fell. “Don’t be.”

“I can’t do this.”

He gave one short nod, but distance returned to his face.

Three days later, I collapsed in the herb room.

I woke in my bed with fever burning through me and Ronan sitting beside the window. Snow crowded the dark glass. His cane rested within reach, but his injured leg was stretched stiffly before him. He must have climbed two flights of stairs to get there.

“You have moon-fever,” he said. “Callum claims it is not fatal.”

“Disappointed?” My throat scraped.

“Furious.”

He lifted a cup to my lips. His other hand supported the back of my neck with astonishing care. I drank, watching the hard line of his mouth.

“You should be resting your leg.”

“You should stop giving orders while delirious.”

“I’m not delirious.”

“You called me a beautiful, ill-tempered mountain.”

I closed my eyes. “Then I was delirious.”

His quiet laugh warmed me more than the blankets.

He stayed through the night. When chills seized me, he climbed onto the bed fully clothed and held me against his body. His heat surrounded me. My nose pressed to the pulse in his throat, and his scent eased my wolf’s panic.

At some point, half asleep, I whispered, “Don’t choose someone else tomorrow.”

His arms tightened.

“I won’t make promises while you are afraid,” he said against my hair. “But I am here tonight.”

In the morning, the fever broke. I woke with my leg tangled over his, my hand beneath his shirt, and his palm curved possessively over my hip.

Ronan was awake.

His eyes were nearly black.

Neither of us moved.

The need between us was no sacred command. It was worse because it was chosen—breath by breath, touch by touch, with every reason to stop.

I pulled my hand away.

He let me go.

But the shape of his fingers remained on my skin all day.