Forbidden Cravings (M&M)

The morning sun peeked through the window and onto the two entangled bodies. Their eyes were closed as they were deeply tired from the night activity, and it could be seen on the face of the young man.

Nathan was the first to awaken but stayed still as he was still in a confused state of mind. After staying like that for over 10 minutes, he started noticing the strange feeling on his body, the feeling of satisfaction. He could feel a tingling sensation on his arm, so he slowly turned his head to his right and he got the biggest shock.

Doubtifully, he called out, “Evans?!” But his voice was too loud as he woke the sleeping boy up.

Meanwhile, Evans looked confusedly at the man, and then it all came rushing back to his head—

“He had sex with his crush!”

He looked at the shocked face of Nathan and couldn't stop the guilt that overwhelmed his heart. He knew he could have stopped this from happening, but his selfishness overtook his sanity, he didn't regret it, but that doesn't mean he wasn't scared. He was scared of many things. He was scared Nathan wouldn't talk to him anymore, he was scared the person he loved would see him as a dishonest person who had taken advantage of his unconsciousness, and more than ever he was scared Nathan would send him away.

Nathan looked at Evans whose back was turned to him, which gave him more chills. When he woke up and saw the boy, he had thought they just slept on the same bed, but when he looked down and raised the blanket, he saw both of them were without any clothes, and he could see traces of the crazy actions on the bed, making him more speechless. He was someone who forget things after drinking, so he couldn't even remember what went on, but he could guess he had hurt the young man by seeing how he was facing him with his back. And the traces he left on the young man's back were so obvious. It looked brutal, so it was obvious he had drunkenly forced the boy.

“I. I am sorry, Evans. I didn't mean to—Shit!” He apologized as he looked guiltily at the boy, but he couldn't stop his swear words from coming out when Evans suddenly sat up and faced him.

His eyes were red and swollen from crying, and his neck down to his waist was designed with scratch marks and bites. Nathan's mind went blank as he looked at the man, but who the hell could tell him when he became a beast? Because only a beast would rape a young man. And yes, he has concluded it was rape! Because only forced sex could look like this.

“Don’t look at me!”

Nathan, who was ordered to look away by Evans, immediately followed his orders, as he further confirmed he was at fault.

Nathan cleared his throat, “It's my fault, I am sorry..” He apologized with his face still turned to the side as he avoided looking at the young man.

Evans looked confused, he didn't understand why he would apologize when it was he who didn't reject him. He had told him not to look at him because he was shy, and he was scared to see the look of disgust in his eyes. But now he was more confused hearing the man Apologize. He had thought there would be an argument between them the next morning, maybe with Nathan blaming him for coming to his house, and he might even give the order to stay away from him. He was ready for it all. But he never expected him to apologize, so he didn't bother thinking.

He swallowed hard, “Why? Why are you apologizing?” he asked with his fist clenched tightly, as his fingers pierced into his palm, but he couldn't feel any pain.

Nathan sighed softly as he turned to look at the man. “You shouldn't have come. Though I can't remember what happened in between, and why I ended up forcing myself on you, I am sorry for hurting you.” He said as he looked into the man's eyes and he apologized sincerely.

Evans, who heard the man Apologize looked at him in shock, then suddenly his edgy body relaxed, his fists unclenched, then his body started twitching as if he was trying to reign in his laughter, but it seemed he couldn't hold it in any longer.

“Hahaha!” His loud laughter covered the house, expelling the gloomy air surrounding the room before.

Nathan looked at Evans who was a laughing mess, he couldn't understand how something this bad could make the young man laugh this hard to the point of tears. But thinking he might be so angry made him laugh this hard.

“Are you okay?” He asked with a guilty look. His heart felt heavy as he felt sympathy for the young man.

He didn't know how the boy was feeling right now. Just thinking about how he might have struggled under him, begging for mercy with tears, he might have felt despair looking at the elder brother he respected who violated him, right?

Evans looked up after he was done laughing, though there was still a smile on his face, he shifted on the bed, then got down gently, but immediately he stood on the ground, he went still.

“Hah!” He cried out in pain. He felt like his ass was on fire, the pain went deep into his bones. He broke out in sweat as his body shivered from the pain. He knew he had been injured when Nathan had unmercifully slammed into him last time since he didn't use lubricant for easier entry, and the fact that this was his first time didn't help him.

“Evans! Are you okay? Should I take you to the hospital to get checked?” Nathan asked worriedly, but all he received was a hard glare.

He corrected himself, “Well… then you should sit for a while.” Who knew he would be this wild? Though this was not the first time he had sex, as he and Jesse, Evans's brother had been together for years, it was a normal occurrence to go wild during their lovemaking, but he had always made sure his lover was not injured in any way. But it seems the drink and Heartbreak made his brain muddy.

Thinking about Jesse, he looked at Evans and couldn't help but say something wrong which he would regret later.

He said seriously, “Can you keep this a secret? Especially from Jesse.”