Abandoned at my Shifting Ceremony

ESSIE:

I have no idea why I'm here. And I don't think I am familiar with this place.

One thing I am certain of is that this place is somewhere in the pack but where exactly this place is seems to be the problem now for me to comprehend.

Wait, I thought I was dead. How am I here? Those rogues snuffed life out of me during my ordeal with them so how can I still walk around freely?

I was still trying to make sense of my situation when I saw Conrad walking out of the building that I was standing right in front of.

I don't know why I was excited to see him but then I began to rush toward him so he would be aware of my presence. I was already close to where he was when something put me to a halt.

From the same building Conrad stepped out of, I watched as someone else walked out of it. And it wasn't someone unfamiliar... It was the same lady that I told myself that I shouldn't worry about.

Tamar, that's her name. And I watched as Tamar got close to Conrad and touched him on the shoulder.

Conrad had a smile on his face as he turned to look at her. I have not seen him smile in a long time but here he was freely smiling at her like she was his mate or something.

"Are you ready to leave?" Conrad asked her in a tone that was just as calm as his expression. Why doesn't he speak to me that way?

"Can't we stay here a little longer?" Tamar asked in return as she placed both of her hands on his shoulders, locking them behind his neck.

"But we need to get there as early as possible. Wouldn't be cool if we arrived late for a reservation we made by eight. It's almost seven thirty."

"Here you go being the punctual one again," Tamar said teasingly. "And that's one of the things I love about you."

To my surprise, she locked her lips with his and began kissing him. And Conrad didn't take his lips off as he shared the kiss with her.

The scene looked so passionate that for a moment I forgot that it was my mate that was making out with someone else that wasn't me.

I was mad. But then I couldn't be too mad at what was happening.

The truth is I have always suspected Conrad's relationship with Tamar. It was something that was mostly evident but then I chose to believe that it was just my imagination.

Tamar was supposed to be one of his gammas. Of course he was the alpha and needed personal subordinates which was why it wasn't a bad idea if he had a woman as one of them.

I suspected it going out of hand when Tamar became something like his personal assistant and I would watch them going from place to place with one another as if he didn't have a mate.

I never had the courage to challenge him about it because I was scared to even say anything to him. But then here I was watching them kiss right in front of me like my presence didn't matter.

They eventually stopped kissing but it didn't look like they were ready to let each other go. How can Conrad feel so much affection for another when he still had me as his mate?

I was going through a mixture of emotions right now. Jealousy, anger, bitterness, you name it. But as usual, I couldn't confront Conrad.

"Let's go," Conrad told Tamar and took her by the hand. And the next thing I saw was them walking hand-in-hand toward me.

I stood fixated at the spot with my arms folded across my chest. I was going to express myself this time around. Conrad needs to see that I could be furious just like he always was at me.

I was feeling some type of way the closer both of them got to me. And it wasn't that I was scared, but then something just seemed to be off with the whole situation.

They were getting closer and closer and not for once did their expression tell me that they knew I was there.

My brain wasn't comprehending the whole thing until they finally got right in front of me. I expected them to stop but they didn't. No, they didn't.

They bloody walked right through me like I was not there.

They walked right through me. Wait, they really walked right through me like nothing happened.

It didn't take me too long to understand the situation. The horrifying truth finally dawned on me.

I was dead. And this was my spirit lingering about.