When I Died, My Husband Was with His Beloved First Love

Waking up again was when I heard a rustling sound coming from the trash can in the living room.

I looked around for Kevin, only to find him standing by the trash can in the living room rummaging around.

“I'm so hungry. Is there anything else to eat? Mommy must be hungry too. I am going to find food for Mommy.”

I covered my mouth, the tears raging in my eyes could no longer be restrained, reaching out to hug Kevin, wanting to take him to the kitchen to get some bread, only to realize that I was nothing more than a soul body at this point in time and couldn't hug Kevin one more time.

“Kevin, you can't eat anything from the trash, look at the bread on the refrigerator in the kitchen.”

I reached out and pointed in the direction, but Kevin turned a deaf ear as he finally rummaged through the floor of the trash can to find a rotten orange.

I tried to reach out and stop him from eating it, but he was so hungry as he peeled the skin off and stuffed the rotten half into his mouth, leaving the good half in front of me and…

“Mommy, look! This is still edible! I saved the good one for you. Eat it, okay? You haven't been sleeping well.”

Kevin called out to me over and over again, but my body was cold. The blood raging in my heart had dried up by now.

Kevin reached out his little hand and touched my head.

“Mommy, you're cold. But aren't you too cold? I will cover you with the quilt, so you won't be cold, okay?”

Kevin's tiny body walked slowly on the bed, dragging a quilt from the closet to cover my body.

I followed him with red eyes, watching as he dragged the quilt to cover my entire body bit by bit.

A sudden creak from outside the door startled Kevin who was busy with his work and his tear-stained face finally brought some color to it.

“Dad, is it you who's back?”

Outside, Alex heard the sound and looked at Kevin who still had orange juice on the corner of his lips.

“Daddy has a company reunion today. Where's your mom? How did she make you like this?”

Alex's heart was a mess, looking at the clothes on Kevin's body were full of the smell of the trash can.

“Isabel, didn’t I already tell you to come back from your business trip so we could all be together for the company’s team-building event? You and Kevin were supposed to be there. Why are you still not satisfied?”

Alex's furious voice came out, scaring Kevin.

“If you don't come out, you'll never go to the company again in the future!”

My heart felt as if it had been slashed open by a sharp knife and a wave of pain raged through me.

We had been married for ten years. Silently, I had supported him, helping to grow his tiny, two-person company into what it had become. Staff came and went in waves, most unaware that Alex was even married.

I knew the truth behind his plan to organize the company group event—it wasn’t just for work. He was taking them to the beach, the very place Katie had always dreamed of going.

That's why I opened my mouth to him and asked if Kevin and I could go together as family members.

"What a pain," Alex snapped. "You said you wanted to go, but you’re still not ready. If you don’t want to go, just forget it!"

His frustration hit like a slap, sharp and dismissive, as if my hesitation meant nothing.

The exclusive cell phone ringtone set by Alex rang and it was as if his irritated mind was instantly soothed.

Meanwhile, Kevin stood frozen in place, his face was already white because he was so hungry, he timidly held his two small hands and raised his eyes to look at Alex.

“Daddy, I'm hungry ......”

“Find your mom when you're hungry!”

Kevin looked down and reached out to tug on Alex's pant leg.

“Dad, but mom is so cold. Can you give me something to eat?”

Kevin's supplicating voice carried the slightest hint of aggression. I looked at him at a loss for words, but my outstretched hand pounced.

“Alex, Katie is asthmatic again. Can you take us to the hospital? There's no medicine at home.”

Across the phone, Leona Swift, carried a crying voice, her tone still carried a few moments of trepidation.

Alex’s expression shifted, a sudden nervousness washing over his face. He answered the phone while fumbling to open the door, his voice hurried yet warm, still trying to offer comfort.

“Leona, don't be anxious, I'll go now.”

Kevin watched Alex leave and flew after him. His bare little feet stepped on a glass ball on the ground and fell to the ground in a flash, knocking a big red patch on her forehead.

“Kevin, Mommy will blow you, okay?”

I reached out and tried to cup his face, but I couldn't touch it and even the breath I exhaled with force didn't rattle a bit.

I watched Kevin slowly get up. His small hands rubbing his eyes as he endured the pain in his head and slowly opened the bedroom doorknob.

“Mommy, it hurts. Mommy, please help me.”

Kevin whimpered, wiping tears from his eyes with his small hands, slowly crawling into bed, lifting the covers and coming up to me.

Kevin cried for a long time until he lost her strength, breathing evenly as he slept beside me.