The Ghost Who Guarded Me

Four Weeks After The Crossing

El Paso, Texas.

Cade stood at the edge of the scrap yard and tried to feel something.

The sun was high. The dirt was hard. The smell of rust and old oil hung in the air like a witness that refused to leave.

He'd told Elias he needed to confirm the body disposal was clean. Standard protocol. Loose ends.

What he needed was to see if she'd been here.

The pit was still open. Four feet deep. Packed walls.

At the bottom, only the man he'd dumped beside her lay exactly where Cade left him.

Gray face. Open eyes. Stiff.

She was gone.

Cade lowered himself into the pit. His boots hit dirt.

He crouched beside the dead man and pretended to examine the wound, the decomposition, whatever Elias would expect him to report. His eyes moved everywhere else.

Her blood on the dirt. Dried. Brown. But only where she'd lain. No drag marks leading out. No second set of footprints except his own from the night before.

She'd climbed out herself.

He found her handprint on the edge of the pit.

Small.

Fingers splayed. She'd pulled herself up with her good arm, wounded shoulder screaming, and dragged her body onto solid ground.

He pressed his palm against her print.

His hand was larger. His fingers were longer. But the shape was the same. The arch of her thumb.

The space between her index and middle finger where a scar lived, years old, from a sewing needle that slipped when she was twelve.

He closed his eyes.

She's alive.

He didn't know it yet. Not for certain. But his chest cracked open anyway, a fissure so fine only he could feel it, and something he'd buried five weeks ago began to breathe.

He climbed out of the pit.

Followed her tracks north.

Found the spot where she'd stopped at the mesquite tree. The bag was gone. He'd expected that. He'd left it for her.

What he hadn't expected was the small impression in the sand beside the tree, shaped like a body, where she'd sat and opened it.

She'd seen what he packed.

The water. The cash. The map. The passport.

She knew he'd planned it.

She didn't know why.

Neither did he.

Cade stood in the desert with her tracks disappearing north and tried to remember if he'd ever told her that he loved her.

Not in the way that mattered.

Not in the way that would make her understand why he'd put a bullet in her shoulder and a corpse beneath her body and a bag of supplies at the edge of the dumping ground.

He didn't think he had.

He thought about driving north...

Following her tracks until he found her...

Telling her everything...

Instead, he turned around.

Got in his truck.

Drove back to El Paso.

The pressure in his chest sealed itself over. The breathing thing went still.

He had work to do.

San Antonio, Texas.

Catalina sat on the edge of the motel bathtub and tried to feel something.

The plastic stick had two pink lines. She'd been staring at it for twenty-three minutes. Her reflection in the mirror was a stranger thinner, darker, her eyes older than five weeks ago.

She didn't recognize herself.

She didn't recognize the life growing inside her.

Her hand moved to her stomach. Flat. Empty. But the test said otherwise. The nausea that woke her every morning said otherwise. The exhaustion that pressed down on her shoulders like wet concrete said otherwise.

She was pregnant.

She thought about termination.

The thought arrived without judgment. Clinical. A woman in her position, with her resources three bottles of water left, twelve hundred dollars in a black duffel, and a passport that belonged to someone else did not have the luxury of sentiment.

She thought about her father.

Marcos Salazar had believed in second chances. In redemption. In the possibility that men who dealt in darkness could still hold light in their hands. He'd believed it so fiercely that he'd let Elias Vela into his club, his home, his confidence.

Elias had thanked him by ordering his death.

Catalina touched her stomach again.

What would you tell me to do, Papa?

The silence didn't answer.

She thought about the man who'd put her in that grave.

Cade Reyes. His hands on her face. His voice in the dark. The bullet in her shoulder and the bag at her feet and the corpse beside her body.

He'd tried to kill her.

He'd also tried to save her.

She didn't know which man was real. She didn't know if she'd ever find out.

But she knew this: the child in her body was half him. Half the man who'd condemned her. Half the man who'd packed her an escape route. Half the man she'd loved and hated and loved again in the space between a gunshot and a grave.

She couldn't keep it.

She couldn't let it go.

Catalina stood. Walked to the sink. Splashed cold water on her face. Her reflection stared back at her, wet and pale and utterly alone.

What are you going to do?

She didn't know.

But she walked out of the bathroom anyway. Sat on the edge of the bed. Opened the black duffel and counted the cash inside.

Twelve hundred dollars. A map. A passport. Three bottles of water.

It wasn't enough.

It had to be enough.

She closed the duffel. Lay back on the bed. Pressed both hands to her stomach and closed her eyes.

Somewhere in El Paso, a man she'd once loved was standing in a desert grave, pressing his palm against the print her hand had left in the dirt.

She didn't know that.

She only knew that she was alive, and she was carrying a child, and she had no idea what came next.

But she was still breathing.

That had to count for something.

Four weeks after the crossing.

She was still here.

He was still searching.

Neither of them knew the other still bled