Seven Times I Came, Seven Times You Didn't

Joseph's grip tightened around the tube of ointment. The green medicine squeezed out between his fingers and spilled all over his palm. "Caroline, what did you just say?"

"We're over," I repeated.

For some reason, he looked more repulsed than shocked. "I told you I'd marry you. Can you stop using this kind of trick to force me into doing so?"

I met his distant gaze and nodded. "Yeah. I failed in forcing you to marry me, so now, I'm marrying someone else."

He sneered coldly. "If you really wanted to break up with me, you wouldn't have come here and put on this act today. Weren't you humiliating Gemma just now because you wanted to pressure me into marrying you?

"I said I would! Why do you have to keep getting jealous over nothing?"

With that, he turned around and continued tending to Gemma's wound, ignoring the tears gathering in my eyes.

I stared at his back. My legs were growing heavier by the second, trembling beyond my control. Still, I gritted my teeth and walked away as best as I could. I just wanted to get far away from the sight of them.

Suddenly, Joseph called my name. I stopped. Deep inside, a flicker of hope was still aflame.

"The filing schedule is too tight, so I won't be going home tonight," he said. "I'll stay at Gemma's. Once the filming is finished in three days, we'll head to town and get our marriage license."

I said nothing and kept walking. The 30-minute mountain path took me a full hour to finish.

When I finally reached home, my legs gave out. I collapsed onto the doorstep. Grandma heard the commotion and rushed out. "Caroline, what happened to you?"

I parted my lips, but no sound came out. Overwhelming me was the burning, throbbing sensation in my leg. The moment Grandma pulled up my pant leg, she gasped in horror.

The flesh around my ankle was blackened and badly infected. My whole foot was so swollen it looked thicker than a turnip. It was almost impossible to recognize what it had once looked like.

The women of Pine Ridge survived with their hands and feet. Farming, carrying firewood, climbing mountains, working from dawn till dusk—everything depended on their legs.

Grandma's eyes reddened. She knelt down and gently held my leg, her voice cracking with heartache. "Silly child, why don't you ever take care of yourself? That man has broken your heart a million times.

"Now that you've ruined your leg for him, how are you supposed to live the rest of your life now?"

I looked down, tears silently falling onto the back of my hand.

Of course, I could feel pain, exhaustion, and fear. I used to always hold onto a small piece of stubborn hope, believing that if I tried just one more time and waited a little longer, I would eventually get what I wanted.

Grandma wiped away my tears, her voice hoarse. "It's a good thing your marriage has been arranged. Let's proceed in three days. Your future husband is honest and kind. He'll know how to cherish you."

I closed my eyes. The endless ache spread from my chest to every inch of my body.

The next day, Joseph returned. Gemma was still on his back. "Why are you sitting here?"

I kept quiet. It wasn't until he walked closer and saw my badly infected ankle that he looked startled. The next second, though, his expression darkened.

"What exactly are you trying to do here, Caroline? Gemma hurt her leg, and you did the same to yourself? Do you know her leg got infected again? Are you trying to use something like this just to get my attention?

"I told you I'll leave the mountains with you. Can you stop acting so petulant just because you have my love?"

Petulant…

I tried to lift my leg. No matter how hard I tried, it wouldn't move. Even when I had come down to this miserable state, to Joseph, I was just acting petulant.

I closed my eyes, tears finally rolling down my face. "I'm getting married to someone else."

He glared at me. "Again with this tantrum? I'm taking Gemma to town to see a doctor. While I'm away, you'd better reflect on yourself."

With that, he left without looking back.