Never See You Again

2

Before Sean Sagan and I were talking about getting married, he had a girlfriend he'd been with since high school.

I'm not the kind of person who gets hung up on things when it comes to relationships, so I didn't get angry when one of his friends accidentally mentioned her.

But I still remember the uneasy look in Sean Sagan's eyes as he stared at me back then.

And his friends who were there were all cautiously glancing my way. One of them was even gripping the edge of the table, as if he was afraid I was about to flip it and fly into a rage.

All the staring made me uncomfortable, but I kept peeling a jumbo shrimp for Sean Sagan. Then, in a very calm voice, I said, "What's the big deal? Doesn't everyone have a past?"

'Everyone has a past. The person to cherish is the one right in front of you. There's no need to fuss over what happened before.'

That's my attitude toward relationships, but clearly, it wasn't Sean Sagan's.

I remember that after I said that, all the guys at the table looked visibly relieved. Then, they all raised their glasses in unison, and their way of addressing me changed from my full name, Jade Harrow, to "Saozi."

"Saozi, for being so cool about it, I have to toast you!"

"Yeah, Saozi! Brother Sagan hasn't had it easy all these years. You two should take good care of each other. When you get married, I'll definitely give you a huge red envelope."

At the time, I didn't understand what they meant by "hasn't had it easy," so I just dazedly accepted the glass they offered me.

Looking back now, it seems Sean Sagan had been pining over someone for years. What they meant by "it hasn't been easy" was that he was lucky to finally meet someone as "magnanimous" as me.

He took meticulous care of me in every way. He thawed my cold heart, carefully watering and fertilizing it, waiting for me to blossom and bear fruit.

But on the other hand, he was secretly keeping a sacred place in his heart for his ex-girlfriend—a place pristine and untouched by anyone else. He would pour out all his troubles and worries to her, not expecting a reply...

What was that supposed to be?