Love Lost to a Deal

The days blurred together in a haze of pain and medication. I counted them by the changing shifts of nurses, by the fading sunlight that filtered through the hospital blinds each evening. Two weeks. Three weeks.

Sebastian's visits became less frequent. When he did come, something was different—a careful distance he maintained even while sitting beside my bed.

"Your color looks better," he said, his eyes darting to his phone as it buzzed in his pocket. He quickly silenced it, but not before I caught the name on the screen: Faye.

"How's physical therapy?" I asked, trying to ignore the sting of seeing her name.

"Good." He shifted in the chair, adjusting his collar. The shirt he wore wasn't his—too expensive, too perfectly pressed. "The doctors say I'm making excellent progress."

His phone buzzed again. This time he didn't even try to hide it, just glanced at the message and typed a quick reply.

"Everything okay?" I asked.

"Fine." He slipped the phone back into his pocket. "Just... friends checking in."

Friends. Not me. I was something else now—something less.

"Seb," I started, but he cut me off.

"I should go. I have an appointment in twenty minutes."

"Can't you stay? Just a little longer?"

He looked at me then, really looked at me, and for a moment I saw a flicker of the man I knew—uncertain, guilty. "I'm sorry, Elsie. I really do have to run."

He kissed my forehead—a quick, dry peck that felt like a stranger's touch—and was gone.

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The discharge papers felt heavy in my hands as I signed them. Dr. Chen had explained everything twice, but her words kept slipping away from me like water through cupped hands.

"The surgery will be scheduled as soon as possible," she said. "But you'll need to rest and build your strength in the meantime."

The taxi ride to my apartment—our apartment—passed in silence. I stared at the city streets, at people going about their normal lives, and wondered if I'd ever feel normal again.

Inside, everything looked the same but felt different. Sebastian's clothes still hung in the closet, his toothbrush still sat next to mine, but something fundamental had shifted.

I lay on our bed, curling around his pillow. His scent was still there—faint traces of the cologne he rarely wore, the soap he used. I buried my face in it, inhaling deeply.

"Elsie?" His voice startled me from the doorway.

I sat up quickly, wiping my eyes. "You're here."

"For a bit." He lingered in the doorway, not coming closer. "I brought some things."

He set down a small duffel bag—not his usual worn backpack.

"I thought I'd stay with some friends," he said, not quite meeting my eyes. "They live closer to my physical therapy appointments."

"Friends?" I repeated.

"It's just temporary," he added quickly. "Until I'm stronger."

I nodded, not trusting myself to speak.

He moved around the room, gathering clothes, his movements mechanical and distant. "These should tide me over for a few days."

Days. Not weeks. Not months. Days.

After he left, I sat in the silence of our apartment—no, my apartment now—staring at the closed door. His pillow still smelled like him, but I knew that scent would fade too, eventually leaving nothing but empty fabric.

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Across town, Sebastian sat across from Faye at a restaurant I'd never heard of. The kind with no prices on the menu and waiters who appeared and disappeared like ghosts.

"Try this," Faye said, holding out a glass of wine that caught the light like liquid rubies.

Sebastian hesitated. "I don't know much about wine."

"That's why you have me." She smiled, her teeth perfect pearls against red lipstick. "This is a Bordeaux from 2015. You'll notice hints of blackberry and cedar."

He took a sip, trying to detect the flavors she described. "It's good."

"Only the best for you." She reached across the table, her fingers brushing his wrist. "You deserve someone who appreciates you, Sebastian."

The waiter appeared with menus thicker than books. Faye ordered for both of them in fluent French, then turned back to Sebastian.

"I've arranged for a tailor to meet us tomorrow," she said. "You need suits that fit properly if you're going to be seen with me."

"Why are you doing all this?" he asked.

Faye's eyes softened, vulnerability replacing confidence. "Because I need someone who understands what it's like to feel... replaceable."

"Replaceable?"

"I've always known I was adopted," she whispered, her voice breaking perfectly. "I've spent my whole life afraid that if my parents found their real daughter, they'd realize I was never enough."

Sebastian felt something twist in his chest—a protective instinct, a desire to comfort her.

"They'd be crazy to think that," he said firmly.

Faye's smile was grateful, hopeful. "Maybe you could help me prove them wrong."

Every evening that week, Faye made sure Sebastian was too busy to visit Elsie—too busy learning which fork to use, too busy being measured for suits, too busy listening to her tearful confessions about her fears of being replaced.

And every night, I lay alone in our bed, wondering when he'd come home.