Her Life for Mine

Although I had a new identity, I still had to drink the herbal medicine every day.

Each time I did, I would drift into a heavy sleep. At first, I'd force myself to stay awake by secretly pinching myself. I wanted to figure out what Grandma was trying to do.

I saw her lean toward my face, with her ear pointed my way. She was so close that I could clearly see the dark mole on her earlobe.

As it turned out, she was checking if I was still breathing. She was afraid that Noah, who had exchanged lives with me, would die.

After a long pause, she let out a long sigh and slowly walked out of the room.

"Everything is going smoothly," she said to the medium, who was standing by the door.

Mom couldn't help but burst into tears again. She wept as she softly called out Noah's name.

This was the first time I had ever seen her cry so much. It seemed as though she had reserved all her tears for my brother.

I wasn't surprised when Grandma reprimanded her and told her not to cry in front of me.

As the sound of footsteps faded away, the medium suddenly spoke again.

"I don't think it will progress this quickly. The girl might be tricking you. We should give her a stronger dosage tomorrow."

Grandma hesitated. "But I…"

"You need to be decisive. It won't work if you hesitate. A life must be traded for the other to live."

"Will this actually work?"

"Don't worry. Once, I saved a boy who drowned on the east side of the village the same way."

I had heard of this method a long time ago.

When I was younger, I heard Grandma speaking to a family who had just lost their son. They claimed there was a medium in the village who could bring back the dead and allow them to inhabit another body. Hence, a family managed to bring their dead son back and placed his spirit in their daughter's body.

On top of that, the medium also had a secret method to turn a girl's body into a boy's. If one consumed a certain medication for an extended period of time, they would be able to bring back the dead.

Back then, they thought I was too young to understand. So, they didn't avoid discussing this in front of me.

After pointing a finger in my direction, I clearly heard the woman of the household say, "It has to be done before they come of age. Otherwise, it won't work anymore."

Because of that, I spent more than a decade being cautious and careful. I always behaved respectfully and obediently. I tried to make Grandma remember my worth so she wouldn't exchange me for Noah.

I used to think that she loved me more than she loved him. But to my dismay, a few months before I turned 16, she suddenly made me start taking medication, one that was meant to exchange my life for Noah's.

I burst into tears and refused to take it, but she grabbed my chin and forced the concoction down my throat.

"How will you get better if you don't take your medicine?"

From that point onward, I spent my days drifting in and out of sleep. I'd take the medicine once I woke up. Then, after taking it, I'd fall back asleep again.

I could hear voices next to my ear, but I couldn't move my body no matter how hard I tried.

"Noelle is always unconscious. This can't be right. She's basically a dead body at this point."

"Everyone else goes through the same thing. Why is your family any different? Just bear with it. It'll be over in a few months."

Mom sounded frightened. In a hesitant voice, she said, "I keep feeling like there's someone else in the house—especially when I get up in the middle of the night to drink water. It always feels like there's something chilly right behind me…"

"Don't be ridiculous!"

Grandma cut her off before she could spiral further. "She should be honored that she can save a son of our family! What trouble could a young girl like her possibly stir up? If she's looking for someone to blame, she should direct all her grievances at me. I'd like to see what she can do!"

"This doesn't make sense…" the medium trailed off, deep in thought.

"Unless," her gaze fell on me as she added, "Noelle is still in this body, and Noah hasn't been swapped over. That means he's still out there."

A cold sweat broke out across my body. I felt as if I had been exposed. I wasn't able to move, but it felt like my body was frozen as well.

"Let's give her another glass of sigil-infused water tonight."

I silently prayed that the medium was a fraud and that her sigil-infused water was a hoax. That was the only way I could stay alive.

I didn't want to die.

When I woke up again, it was still dark outside. This was the earliest I had woken up in a long time.

I stared at the dark ceiling and spaced out.

All of a sudden, I heard footsteps approaching me from a distance away. Oddly enough, the footsteps stopped beside me even though I didn't hear the door open.

I let out a faint sigh and felt a sudden chill.

When I slowly opened my eyes, I saw the young girl from before. She was dressed in white, and her face was blurred.

When her hand reached toward my face, I immediately shut my eyes in fear.

"Noelle. Noelle." I heard her whisper my name.

I curled up under the blanket and stayed completely still. My back was drenched in a cold sweat.