Ex-husband's Regrets Worth Nothing

ATLAS' POINT OF VIEW

I am now at the office with my son seated on my lap. He was crying, still because of what Faith had said. "Mommy didn't mean to say that, okay? She was just tired and busy at that moment…" I tried my best to explain as I stare at him. Damn, he looked so much like me—everything, except for his eyes which he got from his mom.

He looked up at me with his big, cute, and teary eyes. "Does mommy loves me?" He innocently asked with sobs in between.

I then kissed his chubby cheeks. "Of course, mommy loves you. We love you, Leo—a lot," I said with a smile trying to give him assurance. I was so happy when I saw him smile and clapped his hands. He then crawled around the office floor.

As I watched my son play on the floor, the scene that happened earlier played back in my mind. There were so much anger and hatred in her eyes. Faith could never forgive me, and I could easily say it just by looking at her. Well, I am a complete fool and a jerk. After everything that I have done to her, I totally deserve her hate—and I didn't deserve her, but I am selfish, and I just can't live without her. Faith was still my badass angel. She still was my girl, my damn life—my world.

I don't know what to do anymore, but I know that I should do something.

I don't know how to make her forgive me, but I want us to be okay like how we used to be before.

I don't know how to get the love of my life to love me again, yet I want her to love me just like before and I want her to feel my love.

My bubbly, lively, badass angel who always had a smile on her face was now a cold, and heartless businesswoman. There was no one else to blame but me.

How can I be so stupid to believe in someone else's lies?

If only I could turn back the time, then I would—over and over—just to make these right.

FOUR YEARS AGO

"Melissa?" I asked as I come near her. "What happened? Why are you crying?" I said in worry as I gave her a tight hug. Melissa was like a sister to me. She was someone whom I wanted to protect as much as I wanted to protect Faith.

As I broke the hug, she looked at me with teary eyes. "Atlas…" She started. "Fai- Fai…" Her words were barely recognizable because of continues sobbing.

I then looked her in the eyes. "Faith? Tell me what happened. What happened to Faith?" I yelled at her face making her flinch. "Tell me!" I repeated when she didn't give me an answer.

"Atlas…" she finally spoke as she took the phone from her pocket. "You… you need to take a look at this," she continued as she gave me her phone. I first looked at her with confusion before I get the phone from her hand.

There was a video.

I gave her one last look before playing it and what I saw fucking broke me into million pieces.

It was a video of my girl having an intimate moment with someone else. The video was full of her moans and the man was hovering over her in great pleasure. This can't be real.

This can't be fucking real.

"What the fuck is this, Melissa?" I paused the video and glared at her with tears in my eyes. "Stop playing pranks on me!" I yelled at her as I threw the phone onto the floor.

"How I wish that this was just a prank, but Atlas… it isn't." She said, crying.

"No, no, no!" Tears were still falling on my face. I feel like it won't stop. "Who sent you this, Melissa? Who?!" I was so mad. I can't control the surge of emotions and pain that I was feeling right now.

"Re-remember Ben from- from our college? He- he was at the club at that time when he saw this. And he- he sent it to me…" she was stuttering so bad.

"And you believed in that shit, Melissa? Why do you even have Ben in your contacts?" I asked furiously. Her face looked pale as she looked away.

"He followed me on Instagram, and I- I followed him back but we never spoke. This was the first time." She said looking so nervous. She can't even look me in the eyes now.

"I'm gonna kill the mother fucker!" I cursed. "Fucking send me the video, Melissa," I commanded her.

"But—"

"I said send it to me!" I cut her off. She then had no other choice but to pick up her broken phone and send the video to me.

After receiving the disgusting video, I sent it over to a trusted friend and texted him if he could check if it was morphed, or edited. He was an expert at this. After a few minutes of waiting, I got a response from him.

My world completely collapsed.

According to my friend, the video was raw and there was no chance of it becoming an edit.

I unconsciously dropped my phone.

I cannot feel my whole body as tears began to fall again.

My Faith, my girl, my love cheated on me.

Suddenly, I felt warm arms wrapped around my shoulders. I looked up at her with my red and still crying eyes. "She- she cheated…" I said in such a low voice.

"Shhh," she then hugged me even tighter. "Let it out, Atlas. Let it out," Melissa whispered beneath my ears making me cry even harder. I broke down in betrayal by the woman a trusted and loved the most.

How can she even do this to me?

Am I not enough? Am I not fucking enough?

"I know you're already hurt, but I need to show you something else. You need to know everything," she said as she took her phone again. What more should I know? I feel like nothing could hurt me anymore. This was the most painful.

I then heard a recording from her phone…

It was Faith who was speaking. I knew the sound of her voice all too well.

'I only want Atlas for his money, Mr. Williams. He was going to be wealthy, you know that. Why would I even let go of that opportunity?' She even laughed at the end.

The pain entirely ate me. And even though I do not want to, I started to feel hate towards her.

I had the want of ruining her as much as she ruined me.

Faith Abdella… I will make you regret playing with my heart.