A Chance To Love Again

A faint sound of noise still audible on Christian’s side. He paused for a long time before finally losing his control.

"Savvy, can't you stop starting it again?" His voice was harsh and had a hint of annoyance.

“Starting it again? Heh!” I tittered ironically, “Christ, do you still remember that I'm your girlfriend.”

“You broke the promise..now you are disappointed.” My laughter grew harder, “You never fail to entertain me.”

“Savvy, you are really out of your mind today.” He grunted, “Why are you being so petty?”

I felt a pang in my heart and snapped, "I know where you are right now and how your weapon looks like! Nowadays social media can do anything, you know."

“ Savvy, we are really having a meeting here.” He almost chewed his words.

“It's okay.” My voice was too nonchalant for him to recognise, “Mr Mafia King, in future if you want to hide anything don't let your little Kay share any photos casually.”

With that, I hung up and switched off my phone.

All of a sudden, I was feeling nauseous even staying in the room. This villa and this room were decorated by us back then, now they were no more than a concrete wall. As I opened the closet, my gaze fell on the small box. This watch was a limited edition and I saved my money for a long time to give it to Christian today. The blue leather belt with the golden frame was his favourite but it was no use.

I tossed the box into the trash bin and quickly packed my belongings. I no longer crave for this villa, even though it was luxurious and had everything. It lacked love. I was determined to leave. After all, it was Christian’s and I should have disappeared.

It took me a while to pack. When I loaded my things into the taxi and headed to my small apartment downtown, I looked back on the last to the villa …..

I had been staying there for three years after completing my graduation. It was a gift I gave myself when I started working as an editor in the Wish Limited.

But Christian was the one to force me to leave with him because he always wanted to glue us together. As I never had a strong argument against him, I got along with his wishes and had been living with him.

The breeze of regrets now pierced my heart harder.

“I shouldn't have agreed back then.” I mumbled with a loud sigh, “Maybe, I can be happier now.”

It felt so ironic how Christian almost forced me to agree to live with him. But when we moved together he was always busy with Kaylee either be it business or her shopping. Now, I truly wanted to question the emotional-fool-myself , “What was the point of living together back then?”

As I entered my apartment, I dropped the luggage and headed to my bed. Don't know due to exhaustion or disappointment, soon I collapsed into sleep.

I recall how we were so intimate with our body yet no connection between hearts.

When the alarm rung louder in the morning, I reached for my phone habitually.

Christian message was the first thing I noticed.

[Savvy, don't be jealous..I saw Kay’s post. It was a last-minute arrangement as she really doesn't understand weapons that much.]

[Stop being childish. Come home when you’re done throwing a tantrum.]

Throwing a tantrum? Good!

He finally destroyed my morning too.

I tossed my phone onto the bed and went to the kitchen. Only the cold water could calm me down.

The word "childish" kept echoing in my mind, igniting small bursts of anger from within me.

Was I really that childish?

Didn't know how many times he had to ‘rescue’ his Kay as she didn't know much about weapon's and that happened to the same day of our dates.

Even when Kaylee demanded his company when she was afraid after watching a horror movie, Christian didn't refuse. Kaylee, the terrific person, could murder with an angelic smile, was afraid of ghosts.

What a great joke!

Jesus!

Besides, she never stayed alone at the residence. The tight security and maids were always around her, even a fly couldn't berge in, let alone ghosts.

Nevertheless, Christian chided, “She is little and needs me.”

I was so shocked and argued with him.

But the same lines repeated again, “There’s nothing between us,”

He let out a long sigh, deliberately wanted to avoid me and the hint of irritation was clear from his voice, “I’ve told you this before.”

Christian again sounded cold, “But if you don't believe me, just think whatever you want.”

With that, he walked out of the villa. Took his own car keys and drove to wherever Lilith was on his own dismissing his chauffeur's offer, every time.

And after every fight, he would take me to romantic dates and spend time with me. He tried to make me happy with gifts and sweet talk.

We'd reconcile, our relationship saved on the surface. But the problem was never solved. It was to the point where I couldn't even remember our conversation without mentioning Kaylee in between.

Did he think I was too native to use me like this?

Yes, I was easy to please—I admit that. But It was only because I wanted to be blinded by his love.

Not this time, though. I finally needed to stop.

In Christian’s mind, Kaylee had all the importance and even more than mine. I couldn't ignore it anymore.

It's better for me to end this one for all. This way, at least my dignity could be restored.

I sighed and squinted my nose before my eyes fell on something strange.